Bournagain

Just came back from a meeting that I could never have imagined happening even a year ago. It was just a meeting of the musicians at the St. Sébastien church to get a little bit more organised for the Sunday worship times. So what’s the big deal? Well, there were 13 musicians there – THIRTEEN!! It’s amazing what happens when somebody (yours truly) leaves. All kinds of people start coming out of the woodwork! And the meeting went really well and I did nothing toward it other than be there.

After feeling like “Mr Music” in the church for the better part of 8 years, this is all so weird. So many conflicting emotions – should I feel thrilled at all these new gifts coming forward in the church, guilty at not having got things better organised sooner, satisfied at being able to move on without leaving everyone in the lurch, miffed that they’re going to get on perfectly well without me, sad to be missing out on these exciting new developments…?

Mission seems to be about putting your gifts at the disposal of God and others, doing what you can, trusting that God is more than able to carry on the good work he has started and that other people won’t mess it up, and then leaving just when things are getting really good!

The leaving is the hard bit.